Trust Looks Like Something ; July 6, 2014

What does trust look like?

I've been wrestling with this question for a few weeks. In Mozambique the catch-phrase was, "Love looks like something" (one of Heidi Baker's sayings). Love looks like compassion... like feeding the hungry and clothing the naked, like looking into the eyes of the broken and listening to their heart, like crying with those who are mourning and in pain.

I've been in a kind of restless season, and I've been wondering: Trust must look like something, even in the here and now. What does trust look like?

Some of you who'll read this know that I was working as a 4th grade classroom assistant (tutor) from January through the end of the school year in May. I really enjoyed the job and getting to work with kids as well as learn from experienced teachers.

I didn't reapply for the job for a few different reasons. The main reason was to pursue teaching English abroad. This is something I've wanted to do since I added a TESOL minor in college. Since God has called me to missions, I've always thought that teaching English would be a good place to start.

So I've been looking around, and there is an opportunity for me to get my TEFL certificate in South America (which I feel is where God wants me to go). I also have the opportunity to join a 2-week missions trip in the same country, that would transition right into the 4-week intensive TEFL program. This is coming up soon! The missions trip starts on August 8. The only hold-up is that I am waiting to hear if I am officially accepted to the missions team. Then I can book my flights.

I'm not used to waiting for an answer under a time crunch, especially when it comes to international travel. I'm used to planning trips far in advance. For example, I knew I was going to Mozambique 4 months before I left. I knew I was going to study abroad in Ecuador at least a semester in advance.

Oooh! So this is how I learn to trust You, Father.

"Don't worry about your life! Can worrying add a single hour to your life? Your heavenly Father didn't give you today so you could worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow has itself to worry about! All you have to do is seek God's kingdom and His righteousness now, and He will provide everything you need." (my own paraphrase of Jesus' words in Matthew 6:25-34).

If I'm going to be a missionary, God may be asking me to get used to a life of unknowns. My daughter, I hear Him say, trusting Me means leaning on Me and holding My hand even when you have no idea where I'm taking you next!

I'm reading a book called Daring to Live on the Edge: The Adventure of Faith and Finances, by Loren Cunningham, founder of YWAM (Youth With A Mission). This book has been teaching me a lot about what trust looks like. Here are three ideas.

1.) "Those who listen to God will find themselves doing things they can't complete without His help. They will take steps of obedience, then allow God to do His part. In other words, Bible faith requires that you do the possible and let God do the impossible. Faith only operates when we have no other resource but God." (Cunningham, p. 24)

So trust can look like waiting. Sometimes, to others, waiting just looks like inaction, and inaction looks like apathy. But inaction can also mean that you've finished the steps that God has told you to take, and now you have to wait for Him to do His part. That's trust.

2.) "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear... the one who fears is not made perfect in love." (1 John 4:18, NIV) That is one of my life verses. What it means to me is that if I'm afraid or worried about anything, I'm not abiding in His love!

So trust can look like fearlessness. Fear and love are incompatible—in the same way, worry and trust are mutually exclusive. The opposite of faith isn't actually doubt—it's fear. I believe that when you know you are fully, completely loved by God, you literally have nothing to be afraid of. I believe that, though I know I don't always live it. What do you think: Is it possible to be afraid and have faith in God at the same time?

3.) That leads to my last point... "Whenever we speak of trust, we have to know the one we're being asked to trust." (Cunningham, p.23)

Trust looks like knowing what God is like! Trust me (ha)... if you don't really know God, you'll have a rough time putting all your trust in Him. Personally, looking back at all the times He has come through in my life, I know He is worthy of trust. He's proven it. If you look back through your life, through His promises, you'll see what He's done to draw you towards complete faith in Him.

So right now, for me, trust is looking like leaning on my Beloved (see Song of Songs 8:5). I know everything I have comes from God. Every good and perfect gift comes from my Father who never changes (James 1:17). I know that God has a plan for me, and whatever that plan is, He will carry it out. It's not up to me to make things happen... that's His job. "I cry out to God... who fulfills His purpose for me." (Psalm 57:2)

If you made it this far, thanks for reading... I'd love to hear your reactions and responses in the comments.

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Blogger Esther wrote:

Aaaaahhh, yes. Thank you for writing & posting this! Such good reminders - and your words are beautiful to my soul :)

1 John 4:18 is one of my life verses too!!!! Has been for a couple of years...I've been a very very very slow learner of that lesson. Hmm...I think it is natural to be tempted to fear, because we are human. But I think that choosing to dwell in fear is incompatible with faith.....if that makes sense!

Thank you again sister - can't wait to see how God works in this next chapter of your story! <3

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